Saturday, December 18, 2010

Mason visiting a BML's dreams

Lately, I have been talking to Karissa a lot. She has been really helpful in comforting me these though times. I didnt know she was a BML until she told me about her MS. I wont get too into detail as I dont know if she wants me to share that. Well I know her angels are masons friends! Karissa was one of my WTE moms the first moms i confided on while I was pregnant and the ones who helped me along Masons journey. She is pregnant right now and Mason visited her in her dreams last night. I am so blessed to know her and know that he paid her a visit. I couldnt help but cry throught the message because it was beautiful! and she told me something about Mason that he carried to his grave so no one I mean no one else knew! Ill keep that between us because I dont have to prove anything to anyone. He visited her at a place I spent a lot of time at when Mason was in my tummy. In Redondo Beach CA, Altough she now lives in MA. We both got goosebumps though<3 this was her dream.......

Hi Karen,
Last night at 4:30(ish) I woke up and couldnt go back to sleep because the baby was kicking like crazy! I had nothing to do, and i didnt want to get up, so i grabbed my laptop which was next to me, set a status on facebook, and read your blog. I hadnt read it in a few days, so i had some catching up to do! When i had finished reading (and of course crying!!) i looked at the pictures posted along with the blog and thought how sad i was that i never got the chance to meet him (or you!), especially when we lived so close... I cuddled up next to Luis, and fell back asleep.
When my dream started, i was walking along the sand of Redondo Beach (towards the direction of the pier. There was no one else on the beach. Then i see a little boy walking towards me. He was wearing a black suit with a white shirt underneath, he had no shoes on and his pants were rolled up because he was walking in the water. He had a little red bucket in one hand, and looked like he was collecting shells. As he got closer i knew that it was Mason! I dont know how i knew, i just knew. He was so handsome! He had short shiny brown hair (it was dark, almost black - But in the sun you could see that it was brown), beautiful flawless skin, and sparkling big brown eyes! He was so so so SO handsome!
He showed me the shells he was collecting, and told me he was making a garden for his mommy, and the shells were going to decorate the garden. The sun was starting to set so we sat down on the shore to watch the ocean turn different colors. He asked me if i was happy to be having another girl. I asked him how he knew it was a girl and he told me he knew she had chosen me from a billion other mommies. He told me that she had been here before and her name was Brooklyn then. (A little back story on this: The last miscarriage i had before having Isabella, i found out it was a girl just before i miscarried... I had wanted to call her Brooklyn. Because she was never born, i gave Isabella her name for a middle name - Isabella Brooklyn Malave - Luis and I are the only 2 that know this... well, now you!) I asked him how he knows that. He said "i know her!" (kinda like "duh Karissa! I know EVERYONE" lol). He said that she loves her name Alexis, and she dosent want me to change it! "oh, and her favorite colors are green and purple... not too much pink!" ... ok... "And she loves the beach, just like me, so you have to take her when she gets bigger!" lol. It was like he was telling all of her secrets, kinda like preparing me. He told me that she was a very special little girl, just like him. "does that mean something is going to happen to her?".. He said "that means she is going to touch a lot of lives like me."
I asked him if he felt alot of pain when he was alive, and he told me he dosent remember feeling any pain, he only remembers feeling love. He said the place where he is now there is no pain - pain dosent exist. He said he helps a lot of people, and watches over everyone he loves. He told me he picked his mommy, and that she was very special. He said he has given her strength she never thought she had, courage, patience, but the most important gift he gave her was unconditional love. He whispered that he was going to have a baby sister! And that he picked her out already, but wasnt sending her just yet. He said she will look just like his mommy and she will be perfect!
I asked him if i was going to have a boy, and he said i will have another baby, but he cant tell me if its a boy or girl! I have to wait and find out. He then stood up and told me he had to go back, people needed his help... but he would come and visit again soon. He said "dont forget to tell my mommy and daddy you seen me, OK?!" and ran off back down the beach.
I know its kind of strange - but i felt like i had to tell you!


This brought so much comfort. I can now end this year in peace knowing my little boy is doing ok making things for his mommy<3


UPDATE
These were the shells Karissa saw him picking<3
They are called Cowry Shells and they are viewed as symbols of womanhood, fertilitybirth and wealth

3 comments:

Karissa said...

I love you both <3

The Reagans' said...

THIS WAS UNBELIEVABLY AWESOME!!! I'M SO GLAD HE CAME TO KARISSA BUT SO SO JEALOUS!!! I WANT HIM TO COME SEE ME TOO! MASON! I WANT TO SEE YOU AND HEAR FROM YOU. I LOVE YOU LADIES. YOU GUYS ARE A BIG PART OF MY WORLD FROM THE TIME WE GOT PREGNANT IN 2009. I HOPE WE CAN ONE DAY MEET. THAT WOULD BE THE BEST THING EVER. MERRY CHRISTMAS TO BOTH OF YOUR FAMILIES AND PLEASE, HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR. LOVE YOU BOTH.

Mason said...

THANKS ERICA<3 OF COURSE YOU GUYS WILL ALWAYS BE MY MARCH WTE MOMMIES...ALTHOUGH I NEVER HAD A MARCH BABY! LOL I HOPE WE CAN ALL MEET ONE DAY TOO! I KNOW I AM JEALOUS OF KARISSA TOO! MASON HAS NEVER VISITED ME LIKE THAT..LOVE ALL OF YOU! MERRY CHIRSTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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